Starting Of A Brand New Day

I don't know any other way to say it so I just will. Ceara and I broke up. We just had no time for each other and things were great but just weren't progressing. Its all good. It was only 2 months, so becoming friends wont be too hard. Im alright, so don't any of you worry none...

Other than all that, this weekend was a frightfully busy one. Rehearsals, homework, dealing with other people's drama, as well as my own. It alright, I am always around as an ear for everyone else. The show is coming along great, and all the support and affirmation from my fellow castmates is really helping. Derrick has been totally rad to work with. After a phatty rehearsal on Saturday, we all went to the Kingshead for some grub and grog. A great time was had by all. Then it was home to read, read and read some more. Very productive day if I don't say so myself.

As for this beautiful day, I have school and rehearsal as usual. But of course, its MONDAY NIGHT! And to add to that, my PACKERS are playing tonight! Gonna rip them Bears a new one...

On a random note, I am gettin in rad shape from all this karate and dancing. I am more flexible, stong, have much better energy. This rocks. I gotta keep this up. Well everyone, sorry about making this one short, but I really don't have all that much to say! Hope all is well, and don't you all worry about me. Take care. Peace...

A Now a Quick Announcement

When I got home last night from a long day of rehearsals, I just wanted to plop in front of the couch and chill. I went to the fridge and grabbed a brew and chilled. I didn't recognize the brand, but hey, at that moment, beer was beer. Full Sail beer... ok... One sip, goooood shit. And I am not even much of a beer guy. Anyways, the only reason I am even mentioning this is that they are a small independent company, and I am BIG on supporting that kinda stuff. So yeah, go get yourself some of this brew. I had the Rip Curl. Check out their site too while your at it.

Full Sail Brewing Company, OFFICIAL Beer of THE DAILY FARMER!

Well, I am off. And you can't say I sold out. They aren't paying me to do this. Peace...

Not Again

Wow, all I can say is wow. It is amazing how much your mood can change in just a split second. I was coming out of rehearsal last night when my cell phone rang, I was still busy dancing so I left it alone. Getting out of there, I was in such an awesome mood. Great rehearsal, good old witty banter, plus I had a genuinely perfect Farmer moment when I messed up one of the movements and realized I was supposed to be on the other side of the stage. So with a Zoidberg whoop-whoop-whoop (Futurama; learn it, love it), I high kicked my way back across to my rightful place, much to the raucous laughter of my castmates, especially the piano player "Mom". I checked the message afterwards and it was my old friend Brittany. I hadn't spoken to her in quite some time. Evidently, since we had last spoken in June, her mother had been killed in a motorcycle accident on the fourth of July. I was, and still am beside myself. I was a sort of big brother to Brittany when she lived here. (She is now in Arizona with her father). So, naturally, I was around her mother a lot, who in some ways treated me like part of the family. So this is definately a bit of a blow for me. I will be alright though. I am unfortunately all too used to death now. Moving on to less noteworthy topics...

I am officially feeling the burn from rehearsals. I have been dancing for three nights straight, plus karate classes and the regular half-sprint I am in from class to class and about my daily routine. My legs have just about had it. I need a whirlpool, and a night off. Thankfully I will have Friday off and I can actually go out with Ceara in the evening. The upside is that my energy level has gone up a lot. My demands on my body have been met by my metabolism speeding up. So in a way, I sorta feel like I am back in training again. I have been eating a TON, sleeping much better and have been in a better mood. Note to everyone; If I ever bitch about being tired or in a pissy mood again, just email me and remind me to get my lazy ass back to the gym or something like it.

One other thing, Melanie updated her site (check the "Teddy Ruxpin" link off of her front page. Her link is on the right side of this page.) It has the cast of Dickie. You'll see. P.s. I miss her. As for now, I am off to Karate, sporting my new blue belt. Bitchin. Peace...

Changes All Around

This dancing stuff is really kicking my ass. But hey, it is a new challenge. And if you know me, you know I love a challenge.

It is another hot day here in San Jose. I am in the library as usual, typing a little somethin'-somethin' for all of ya. I feel a lot different today than I have in awhile. The outside stress of my life is coming down a bit, thank god. I was losing sleep and probably pissing people off. If you happen to be one of those people, I am very sorry. Yours truly has been pulled through the wringer as of late. Please don't hate me. But hey, good stuff has been happening too!

The production is going well, as I have mentioned. Oh, on a related note; my girl rocks. She got me all the stage makeup I am gonna need as an anniversary gift. It was on that subconscious list called "Stuff I am going to need but don't know it cuz I never did this before". Thank you Ceara. :) I ran into a few old friends at SJSU over the past few days, which is always cool. It was definitely odd to hear stories of my friends being engaged, or married. Man, am I really at that age where this stuff is happening? I guess so. I think I will be waiting a little while longer if you all don't mind. I cannot picture having a Mrs. Farmer and little Farmers running around the house... err um... farm. Maybe in the future.

In the meantime, I have been really busy with school. Surprisingly busy in fact. Its not that I thought this semester would be a breeze, its just that I am feeling swamped. Ohh well, I shall keep on truckin.

So far, this semester has followed a similar trend that started in the summer; old friends fading away, and new ones coming into the forefront. I have barely spoken to Hannah in the past 3 months. Lord knows I have tried. I call and leave messages, but to no avail. Probably just busy. Kat has also dropped out of existence since the summer began. Partially because she was working at that kids camp, but now that she is back in the kumbaya-less real world, I still never really hear from her. Of course, Melanie and Caitlin have now rooted themselves in my world, and all these new and awesome people I am working with at WVLO are a major part of my current life. So yeah, the cast has definately changed a bit... I will have to make a new FALL '03 cast list when I get time, and inspiration for clever nicknames.

As for now my faithful dozen-or-so readers, it is time for me to depart. I am off to my Worlds Of Jazz class. So, enough about me. Tell me about you... Whats new Until next time. Peace...

Codename: TRAIN WRECK

Hey everyone, gotta make this one quick. Lots to do today. This weekend was but at the same time it was a bit stressful. I went to Raging Waters with Ceara and her friends Shelby and Andrew. Good times, but I was exhausted afterwards. Last night, we started the choreography for the major dance number of the show. So, needless to say, I am very sore this morning. And of course, we continue this same number tonight. Ouchkibibble...

As for today, I am in the library studying for a big test I have later on. Then I have rehearsal tonight. I need a vacation. Busy day. Wish me luck. Peace...

Ughhh

Cant sleep. 1:48am. Cant sleep. Help. Shoot me... Peace...

Mean People Suck

Hi there, hey there, ho there... As usual, I am in the library. But today, I am going to be here for quite a bit longer than usual. My Phil9 teacher was 15 mins late, yet again. So we all left. This is absurd. She is a college professor. The LEAST she could do is be on time for class. What ever happened to being professional? Moving on...

After speaking to you all last time, I have been reminded that this world is full of inconsiderate assholes. Please do not take the term "asshole" as a strictly male term, I mean this in a unisexual sense. And here is why. After my karate class, I went over to the student union to go buy a Sobe. While I was standing in line, a very rude girl just went shoving past all of us in line, yelling (somewhat sarcastically) "ExCUSE ME!" I just shook my head and reminded myself that karma would get the better of her. Then, on my way back to the library, a guy on a skateboard passed by me. No biggie. Most of the skaters on campus are cool about staying out of our way and are not a problem. But one of San Jose's finest thought otherwise. When I got about halfway to the library, the cop had stopped the skater and was writing him a ticket, and giving him an earfull. Whatever, he wasnt doing any harm. Then, on my way home, I was cut off by a major dick in a Hummer with the license plate MUV ACYD. (Move aside...) Need a say more.

Ok, I'm back, had to answer my phone. Ceara called me a second ago and I forgot to turn my phone to the quiet setting while I am in here. Random note; my new glasses rock. I love em. They fit, look badass, and best of all, I CAN FRIGGIN SEE!! Always a bonus.

Last night was awesome. I stayed home, watched a few movies, did a little studying and just relaxed. Ahhhh. Add to that a beer or two and it was just what I needed. Even cooler was the fact that there was this show about the restaurants of Milwaukee. I am going to love it there! I forgot how awesome it is. All that Polish and German food is going to be the death of me though. It will be interesting to go back considering that I am now a lot more of a California boy than I am a Wisconsin boy anymore. Ohh crap, Im going to get my accent back. Ohh well...

Wow, so much time to kill. Stupid teacher. I must say though that I really enjoy my Jazz class. The teacher is so awesome. Its fun, I am learning a lot, and it is helping me understand so much about the roots of music that I play. Gotta love it. Well everyone, thats about all I have to say for today. Have a friggin awesome day. Dont let the assholes get you down. Peace...

Two Left Feet of Fury...

Good morning everyone. This is a very sore and tired Farmer talking at ya. We began learning the choreography for Hello Dolly last night. And might I say; I am better off as just a singer. Im getting it fine, its just that it takes all my concentration to get it as compared to everyone else who probably understands it immediately. It isnt second nature to me. Welcome to musical theatre pal...

Other than all that, yesterday was just one of those days. A late start meant I was one step behind on everything else up until the afternoon. Late to classes, didnt get to eat lunch, broke as hell. But hey; got to see Caitlin for our 2 month anniversary, then it was off to get my butt kicked at rehearsal. All the while during the day I was desperately reading a book for my Eng 163 class whenever I could spare a moment. I stayed up till almost 1am reading. I even had Ceara call me before she went to bed to make sure I was still awake and didnt puss out and go to sleep. Anyhoo... I finshed my reading, got a respectable seven hours of sleep, and managed to get to class on time today. Not a bad start. To make things better, I dont have rehearsal tonight. This will give me time to get some studying done, clean up around my room, play a little guitar and just veg out a bit. I definately need a night to clear my head. Lots of stuff up there.

As you might have read last week, I have made the choice to be a high school teacher for awhile after I get my BA and my credential from SJSU. So, my mind has been on that a lot. The wheres, the whens, the hows and such. So far I am roughly thinking of going back to my old hometown of Greendale, WI. I miss that small town atmosphere. I have also been very distracted by my grandmother suddenly becoming somewhat ill. I am very close to her, and this has all come on suddenly. There was a bit of a scare a few weeks ago when a doctor thought he may had found a malignant tumor. Thankfully, the tests proved negative. But now, she is feeling a pain in her side and just hasnt been feeling well in general. I am trying to act as strong as I can in the face of all this but it is becoming rather difficult. I didnt really know the full brunt of this new scare until yesterday before I went to go see Ceara. My grandmother is having a few tests done today, so we should know soon what exactly is going on.

Past all that, today is looking up. I have karate class in 40 mins. Then Brit Lit at 1:30. Then thankfully I can just go home. Ohh wait, I have to pick up my new glasses. Cant wait. I havent had new ones since I was a sophmore in high school. Almost six years. Damnnn.

Cool stuff coming up for me, which I am totally stoked about. May be hitting Raging Waters with some buds on Saturday. (p.s., if you are a tight bud of mine, drop me an email or call me if you wanna come along.) Not Lenny may be playing a phat gig at Ohlone College thanks to Ceara. Yes, she rocks. And as for everything else, you will just have to stay tuned to find out as it happens.

Until then people, I am off to learn the fine art of ass whoopin. Take care, tip up the cup, smoke if you got em and all that jazz. Peace...

Dang, either my seasonal allergies have kicked in hardcore or I have been blessed with a beautiful case of crap-in-nose-itis. But, I am a trooper. Onward type!

Ok, explaining my distraction during yesterday's post... I was over at Ceara's place getting ready to go. To kill the time, I decided to do a post, but just over my shoulder there was a sudden burst of witty banter between her, and her mother. And of course, I was pulled into the fray. I actually don't recall the topics at hand. If I remember, I will have to mention it sometime.

Repeating myself, I feel like crap. Something MUST be blooming around here. I dont feel sick per se, just blech. I definately feel the urge to shove a shop-vac nozzle up my nose and throw the thing on HIGH. I just hope I feel a little better tomorrow since we are starting the choreography for Hello Dolly. Lots of work to be done, and I do NOT want to be under the weather. Dancing around in a 90 degree rehearsal hall is hard enough.

Well, thats all for me today. Pardon my lack of motivation. Check ya tomorrow. Peace...

TDF Strikes Again

Heya ladies and germs. Coming at you from yet another different location, scenic Ceara's House. Hows it goin? Good? Great to hear. Whats that? Ohh, I am just ducky. I am currently waiting for mi'lady to finish getting ready. We are going to be heading off to Sacremento today for her cousin's birthday. Ok it looks like I am going to get my ass kicked. Be right back...
Ok, bruised but back at the keyboard. I must say the conversation between Ceara, her mother and myself while I type for you. Not even going to explain. Well, it looks like this very aimless post is now coming to an end. I will translate this all for you later. Peace...

Umm yeah...

Good morning yaal. Im not feeling too creative today. So here are the basics.

- Rehearsal is running me ragged.
- School sucks.
- Happy Birthday Derrick!
- My car is dirty.
- Gotta finish Ceara's anniversary present.

Ok thats it. Im out. Here's to getting four outta four. (If you wanna know, email me). Peace...

Catching My Breath...

Wowsers, that was a long one yesterday. I guess I just had a lot to say. Well, it has been a hell of a time for me. A lot has happened. But I digress...

Another day, another batch of classes... But in the meantime, here I sit in the 2nd floor of the library typing this up and talking to a few old friends on AIM. Yeah, its a pitiful life. A computer, some Jamba Juice and one eye on the clock so I am not late for my Worlds of Jazz class at noon. I still have about a half hour, no worries.

Well, it looks like Caitlin won't be going to LA. Good and bad... Good cuz I get to see her, but bad cuz I know how much she was looking forward to going. Ohh well, there are tons of weekends.

Ok, random tangent. There is this guy sitting at the computer across from me who is totally creeping me out. He keeps leering at other people, including myself, and angrily mutting something every time he clicks the mouse. Thats right, he giving me the jibblies...

And now my faithful 10-15 readers, I feel it is my duty to put in my two cents on this, the two year anniversary of the tragic attack on our country. I remember all too well walking into El Conquistador Cafeteria at San Diego State for breakfast that morning and seeing the first tower come crashing down as I ate my Cap'n Crunch. I will never forget it. Going back to my dorm where my neighbor Kyle was blasting "It's The End of the World" by REM, Erika was yelling at him, my roomie was getting hourly calls from his mother, and I was waiting for a call from Emily after she got home from school. It was a horrible day for us all. We cannot forget what happened, but we also must move on. I think it is a bit much for us to rehash old wounds by again having ceremonies where we read the names of the dead. It isnt to diminish the loss, but we owe it to the fallen to move on and live our lives. I think that is the way they would want it. We wont forget, but we shall live on. PEACE...

Hello everyone. Coming at you from the 3rd floor of San Jose State's new MLK Jr. Library, its me. Amazing huh? A lot has happened since I last posted, so away I go...

Rehearsals began for Hello Dolly on Monday, and may I say that this is probably going to be one of the most challenging things I have ever done. The vocal arrangements are so intricate. Very tight harmonies. I am truly impressed by our altos and sopranos. They are picking up stuff so fast. I think as a cast we are picking things up amazingly quick. Its just a matter of whether or not we can pull this off while dancing. We will just have to wait and see. I just hope the choreographer doesn't go ape shit with the dancing. I am enjoying the challenge of working my voice this hard. I have some high notes to sing that I barely squeeked out last night. A high C, and I think I have a D flat above high C, but I am not sure since I don't have the music in front of me. But hey, I would rather sing lower and have it all sound better than go higher, go flat, and mess up the harmonies. The cast is really awesome. We have some INSANELY talented people in this one. I must admit though that I feel a bit out of place since I have absolutely no dancing experience and I am constantly hearing a bunch of dancers lingo in conversations. I am just a common dime-a-dozen vocalist trying to fit into this somewhat awkward mold of musical theatre. It is a blast though, and I am not going to give up. Besides, Caitlin would never let me quit, and anyways, I want to make her proud.

Along with HD, things have been rather interesting for yours truly. I have finally centered in on what I want to do for the next few years as far as a career. I am going to finish up here at SJSU, then I am going to get my teaching credential, then I am off to teach high school for awhile before I get my masters. I know this doesn't sound like much, but for the first time in God-only-knows-how-long, I know where I am going. That sick feeling inside me is finally subsiding now that those horrible thoughts of doubt and misdirection are on their way out. I feel so much better. You may be asking what spawned this new sense of confidence... Well, yesterday I went to my old high school and shadowed an old English teacher of mine for a class, then spoke to two other teachers about how their lives work living on a teachers wage, which is after all one of the main reasons that people turn away from teaching. I will admit, the money will be tight for awhile, but I know that if I can go into work on a Monday morning and not dread the 8-9 hours I will be there, I will be just fine. Ohh, on a side note, I am now being lusted after by several 14 year olds... Look out Caitlin... (rolls eyes).

Let me see, what else. Caitlin and I are doing awesome. We are both really busy with school and our plays, but we still manage to see each other plenty. She will sadly be out of town this weekend, down in LA to party it up at USC. I'm gonna miss her, but I will see her Sunday night or Monday, so its all good. I must say I am really happy with her. I cant wait to see her in her school's production of DRACULA. Ohh by the way, if you live in the Bay Area and want to see it, EMAIL ME and I will drop you details as soon as I get them. I miss Melanie a lot. She has been gone for almost a week now, and she just updated her webpage yesterday. You can read it yourself by clicking the link on the left side of the page. I just hope she doesn't come back with an accent. Actually, wait, scratch that, reverse it. I hope she does so I can playfully mock her since she occasionally does the same to me because of my midwesten accent. Her's shouldn't be too bad since she will only be there for about four months. As for today...

More of the same, school, hopefully seeing Caitlin... Ohh that reminds me...

I have finally coined a new nickname for her. Borrowing from an old Gaelic name, and the fact that she loves to wear red, and at one time her hair was the aforementioned color, I call her Ceara (KAY-rah) which means "bright red". Also, her personality lends to the color so well since she is so upbeat and perky. So make a note of it in case I refer to her by that name. In the meantime, she has coined several nicknames for me. First, she calls me Fievel (from the animated movie An American Tale) because of my Polish last name which sounds similar to the "Mousekowitz" name used in the movie. I do not particularly feel the need to say the other two names since it is not my place to explain them. Caitlin will be starting her own blog sometime soon, and you can just ask her. Until then everyone, I am off to resume my day. More rehearsal tonight, and rest assured I will be posting again soon. Email me and let me know whats up in your neck of the woods. I am serious. Empty inboxes make the monkey that lives in my closest angry. Peace...

Howdy howdy ladies and germs. And welcome to another edition of T.D.F. It is another beautiful day of Indian Summer; that time of year when it starts to cool off at night but stay blazing hot during the day. The time of year where the angle of the sun changes to hint into winter, the leaves start changing, and a cool nip begins to carry in the breeze. And I have quite a full day ahead of me, so lets get this one rolling.

Yesterday was a fun-filled day indeed. Went to SJSU with Caitlin to get her a book for her class, and ended up taking a bit of a tour of our new kickass library. A most interesting place I must say. The bathrooms on each of the eight floors have a sink that looks like a meteor crater which are in slightly decreasing size as you go to the next floor up. So imagine this, they are each directly below each other in decreasing size going up. Very art-neuveau... There is also a window on the seventh floor which appears to be cracked. But it is actually small lines of text. Puns, light jokes... yes... dare I say it; wise cracks... I know... boooooo. The elevators are pretty cool as well. Ha... I must say, I never thought touring a library would be so much fun...

After dropping Caitlin off, I headed off to the SJSU/Stanford game with the guys from Kappa Sig. Fun times... Everyone got really drunk and didnt want to go into the game, so I decided to jam on home. We lost anyways. So yeah, home, sleep, yay. And now I am off to begin yet another day. I am off to buy a book, clean my room, do some HW and then see my lady tonight.
Drop me and email why dont ya? Peace...

Good afternoon everyone. It is Friday. I am currently sitting around in my towel, waiting for my laundry to be done. Yes, I have managed to wear just about everything I own. But anyways...

I wasnt really planning on writing today, seeing as I have much more to do. But, something caught my attention today. Just about anyone who is in college has probably seen the "Killing Kittens" picture. Well, I ran into something today which I must say is taking this whole joke way too far. Check this out... Can you say overkill? Sheesh. But I digress...

Last night was fun. I went to the Kingshead with Caitlin and Kendra, had some grub and little something to eat, and just had fun listening the the sounds of Celtic Nite. Great time... And, in the course of the evening, Caitlin noticed my bit of scruff from not shaving for a day or two, and she said it looked kinda nice on me. So I am going to (yet again) try and grow the goatee out for awhile and see how it looks. Its still in its baby stages as of now, but I am going to give it a week or so and see how it turns out. We shall see.

As for this evening, I will be going over to Kappa Sig for the Luau. (Hoping a certain ex doesnt show up, right Caitlin?) Oughta be fun. Until next time people... Peace...

A sad morning indeed. In about an hour, Melanie will be leaving for the UK. If you have been reading in the past few months, you will know that she has been one of my closest friends this summer, and along with Caitlin, basically MADE my summer for me. And now, she is off to study abroad for this semester. I was at her house last night at midnight or so to say goodbye, and it basically took everything I had not to cry. What can I say, I'm really gonna miss her. So heres to you Mel. You were a major part in making my summer kick so much ass.

Heres to Super Troopers, witty banter, not-so-witty on-stage banter, demo's that didnt work, my carnification, furburts, before-work Starbucks runs, tickly bubbles, a relaxing whirlpool in the mountains, and last but of course not least; advice on anything 24/7. Have fun and learn tons. I will miss you dearly my friend. We all will. Peace...